What inspired you to walk on the course of beauty pageants?
I entered my first pageant when I was at a low point in life- I'd faced some major setbacks, and every door I tried was closed to me. However, instead of feeling defeated, I used the opportunity to examine what I really wanted out of life, what my passions are, and what opportunities were still open to me. I have always loved performing, public speaking, and I feel most at home in a gown. I had nothing to lose and everything to gain, so I went for it- I applied for the Miss Kansas USA pageant, and competed for the first time ever at 26 years old.
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What do you expect to gain by competing in pageantry?
Pageantry has given me direction and a stronger sense of self. The competition itself may be one weekend, but the preparation for it is constant. Having a goal like competing in a pageant puts so many other decisions into perspective- you sacrifice a lot in the short term, which helps you develop discipline. I have found new passions through pageantry, and I've developed new friendships with women who have similar hopes, dreams, and experiences.
Tell me something about yourself and your work. What do you actually do, and have done in the past?
I have had a fairly diverse career! I worked in bridal and formal wear for 8 years- I was a bridal consultant like on "Say Yes to the Dress". I also had the opportunity to go to the Chicago Bridal Market as a buyer for the boutique that I worked at, and I competed as a designer in a local charity fashion show. I left the bridal world for aviation- my first "big" job was with Textron Aviation, working on their NASCAR sponsorship. I went from an incredibly feminine world to an incredibly masculine world- but I enjoyed every minute of it! I went to many NASCAR races around the country, and I even had access to the pits. While it was a wonderful job, I wouldn't have had the opportunity to compete in pageants since I was working and traveling so much. I currently work as an aircraft insurance broker for Air Capital Insurance. I insure a number of air racers, aerobatic performers, warbirds, and jets- I've learned more about aviation in this job than ever before, and I've really found a passion for it. I even hope to earn my pilot's license before my 30th birthday!
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Many misses have said that their dream since a child was to participate in a pageant as prestigious as Miss World (or Miss Universe). It this your case ? And if so, why ?
I wouldn't say that it was a consistent dream for me growing up- I would watch the major pageants with my mom when I was a child, and I would marvel at their gowns. It was more of a daydream for me than a real goal- not something I ever thought would really happen in my life. It's definitely more of a goal that has crystalized in my adulthood than in my childhood.
Social media seem to play a major role in pageantry nowadays. Do you think this is advantageous to you? Why or why not?
Absolutely! Social media allows a queen to be accessible in a way that they never were before. Before social media, my road to the crown would have been much more isolated, confined to close friends and family. With social media, I have friends and followers from all over the country- even in different parts of the world- who are cheering me on and encouraging me in my journey! In the past, a winner would be crowned and you may not hear that much from her after that moment. Now, I can see all of the initiatives that Miss USA and Miss Universe are engaged in, see their unique personalities, and witness the difference they are making in the world.
Did you face any moment of disappointment with yourself during the pageant journey, and how did you overcome it?
I make no secret of how I have struggled with my relationship to my body. I'm much more "Kardashian-esque" (as I like to say) than most pageant competitors, and you really don't see that. There are times that I doubt myself because I don't conform to the standard, no matter how hard I train in the gym. I may look at my fellow competitors and wish I was more like them. But I have to remind myself that I am unique and beautiful in my own way, that what I bring to the stage is different, and that my identity is more than my face and my body. I am strong, healthy, and happy in mind and body. I want to be an example of body positivity, of advancing pageantry into a new era. I will hold my head high and remember who I am. I will do my best and put the rest in God's hands. I can't say that I had one singular moment where I overcame my self-doubt- it's daily progress. Some days are better than others! I try to be as honest as possible in this regard- I hope other women see me and recognize that we all carry similar struggles. But despite it all, we can still be courageous and recognize our own beauty, unapologetically.
We’ve all seen the stereotypical portrayals of pageant contestants, a la Miss Congeniality, spreading peace, love and beauty throughout the world. How do you think you'll make a difference ?
If I win the crown, I hope that my triumph will be an inspiration to others. I have been at the bottom- I've struggled with depression in the past, and I've faced serious personal and professional crises. There were times I felt like giving up. If I were to win, I would tell everyone I meet that life is worth living. Don't give up just because you're going through a difficult time in life. As Winston Churchill said, "If you're going through hell, keep going"- I want to be a beacon of hope to others. If I can face dark times and come out stronger than ever before, so can they. Life is beautiful, and you never know what may be just around the corner. The possibilities are truly endless.
Thanks to the beautiful Jenna for the interview. Pageants News wishes you all the very best for Miss Kansas USA pageant.